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Carpe Diem

Take a step, make a move, take a lead. Get a hold of your life, because at the end of the day everything you do will affect the rest of your life.

In one of my previous posts, Sadness, Be Gone! I talked how we should carefully select our friends. And I am here to talk about how wonderful life can be when you have the right friends and don’t let others affect you negatively. You are the center of your world, you are the strongest tower in your castle and the last thing you want to do is lose your King/Queen. Don’t let someone else rule your realm, be your own leader. Do what makes you happy, not what makes others happy.

Whether we’re talking about the type of pizza you want to order or the place you want to move to, you need to sit down and think things through yourself. Advice is welcome, but don’t feel bad for not taking someone’s advice even if they say they’re offended by that. How can one be offended by that? It’s not their life, it’s yours. Don’t let someone else make you feel sad or angry or jealous. Don’t let anyone else make you do or be anything beside being happy.

If you are happy then return the joy to them and make them smile when they have a bad time. Respect, appreciate, and return all good things you receive. Even if it’s just a smile, it will mean to them a lot. I know I have failed myself many times on this front, but I try my best. Many times I go along with what others do and then regret it, or forget to thank someone for the help and then feel bad about it later on. I’m nowhere near perfect, but at least I keep trying. I really do.

I just had what was possibly the worst day this year. My previous “Storm!” wasn’t really as strong or long as I expected; 3 of the plans I had for today failed and I cancelled the 4th so I can do work at home; I vacuumed for 2 hours and felt like and overused towel; I had a 2-hour meeting which ended up with extreme amounts of drama and stress, I had a headache for about 2 hours after said meeting, and last but not least – my mind had a meltdown. I’m not sure if it was the fact that I had a headache and I got a random unexpected call, but as I left home I had the weirdest day dreaming.

It wasn’t really day dreaming, I didn’t have my eyes closed as I was walking on the streets, but I was thinking and my mind was sending me thoughts of its own. What were they? Things I don’t get even in nightmares. They included my home, family, random hooligans (probably because of the group of punks I saw a bit before that), and a lot of violence and pain. My legs gave up on me. I was basically just standing there, realizing what my mind was thinking and panicking as I was trying to decide what to do. I called home and made sure everything is okay because it felt like a 6th sense is giving me warnings. Thankfully everything was fine and I managed to regain my consciousness soon.

I kept going to meet with some friends and I did something I really needed – drink a few beers with a chill conversations and happy topics along with some jokes and funny memories. It had unbelievable healing powers. All my bad thoughts were soon forgot, and my headache was gone. I realized I was feeling bad because of things and people I do not care about. They do not care about me, I have no need to care about them. Let them go their way and I will go my way.

I’m off to watch the finale of the Legend of Korra as I that’s what I want to do. That’s what would make me happy and help end my day with a smile rather than worries.

Summer, here I come!

Yosh, after what seemed like the longest year I’m finally done with university. Two years left to go, but you know, a well deserved summer break awaits before another year. And what does that break include? Well, my list currently consists of:

  • Leave campus and head home;
  • Have fun;
  • Catch up on all the TV shows I’ve missed out;
  • Eat lots of ice-cream;
  • Catch up on reading because I’m way behind;
  • Have more fun;
  • Pick a week where I’ll cut off all communication (internet, cellphone, etc.) and just relax;
  • Do some quality writing as I haven’t done that in a while;
  • Take photos more often;
  • Have even more fun.

Yep, it looks like a lazy list but that’s because it IS a lazy list. When you get fed up on life it’s best to take a break and devote some time to yourself rather than get to a point of craziness. Life is wonderful, but only if you enjoy it – no amount of money or fame can provide you that. Not even people. Food can, somewhat, especially sweets, but you know that has a side effect that you won’t like later on.

The only thing that makes me sad is that most of my shows are gone at least till the Fall. But I do have yet to catch up on True Blood, Community, and Modern Family. I guess that will do for now. Take whatever you can, carpe diem, and all that jazz. 😛

But even if I end up short on shows I can always pick up a video game or add a few more books to my list, spend more time writing, or simply enjoy the breeze of wind under the shadow of a huge tree. I could do anything, really, that doesn’t look or feel like the dreadful thing that is work and . So Summer, beware – I have plans for you, big plans with lots of fun, and don’t think your high temperatures will stop me.

And you too, dear reader, give yourself a pat on the back if you’ve survived the year – get some well deserved rest. It doesn’t need to be a luxury vacation in another country, improvisation is one of your best friends. 😉