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The title’s 101 not because I have that many dalmatians at home, but because as of this moment that’s the number of posts on this blog. Which isn’t showing off — I started the blog in May 2012 so really it’s quite the opposite as I know a fair share of you who cover 100 posts in a week or two. I’ve been on and off in the past, unable to get myself to stick to posting. Back then it had a different purpose, different content, and a different theme. But I believe now I have a more clear direction and a better management of my time for it, so it should hopefully keep growing instead of stalling. In just 2 months this year I’ve achieved just as much as I did during 2014 and 2013, and I’m one third of the way to beating my stats for 2012. Which is not to say the path it was headed toward previously is wrong, it was simply aimed at a different target. Or, to use another Hemingway quote…

“There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.” ~ Ernest Hemingway

Just because the start might not have been that brilliant, it doesn’t mean I get to just ignore it. It still included writing and thoughts that came from me, it included pieces of myself. But it’s important to remember and honor the past, just as much as we aspire and plan for the future. Without the past we wouldn’t be where we are and there would be no future to look forward to — we’d still be at square zero.

So, a note for myself, and for everyone else I guess, keep bleeding, keep writing, keep sharing your hurt with the world. If we can all relate and help each other get through the pain, we’ll come out stronger in the end. Here’s to another 100 posts — cheers!

Sadness, Be Gone!

I’ve been a bit behind on both writing and reading blog posts, and I truly am sorry about that. I wish I had more time on my hands, but alas, I cannot travel in time. Anyway, this post is on request of a certain dorky person I love a lot. She’s been feeling sad, and I’m here to change that!

We meet new people on a daily basis, but when exactly do we classify one as a friend? From what point do we decide to allow ourselves to trust them? The only right answer here would be “it doesn’t matter.” What is important is to not become dependent on people. Friends are friends, they’re fun to have around, but it also hurts when they leave or turn their back on you. So one needs to be able to keep their distance, at least until they’re sure they have chosen the right company.

In my 20 years of life which seemed rather long, I have changed my group of friends a couple of times at the least. Even nowadays, with the friends with whom I’ve spent the last several years, I cannot consider everyone a true friend. The fact is that the more time you spend with people, you will discover more and more about them and their acts. By observing their deeds you can understand who is worth keeping around and who isn’t. You don’t need a dozen of fake friends in your life, you just need a close few who will be there for you no matter what.

Sure, the more the merrier, but only as long as you know them well and you are sure they can be trusted. Either way, you should never let friendship become a necessity. Support is great, but family should also be able to provide that, and even if it can’t, there is still no excuse for leading your life in the form of liability. Everyone has their weak and strong sides, you need to work on improving the first and channeling the latter to maximum. This way you will provide yourself with support, instead of relying on other people. Because if someone who trusts becomes someone who hurts you, you will find yourself in a bad place.

Yet not trusting anyone won’t do you any good, you need to open yourself to others. You need to let go of your stress and emotions in order to prevent a possible explosion in your head. But, you also must take care and never linger on the past or lost friends. Friends are like cookies – the really good ones are very rare. And you also need to work on those cookies if they are to become very good – your actions can influence others and make them better people (or well, worse people otherwise).

Basically, don’t feel bad if you break a friendship because that “friend” hurt you. If they were your friend they wouldn’t have hurt you in the first place. You are the tree of life, they are rotten branches – cut them off. No worries, you’ll grow new ones very soon. As long as the sun is shining and your feet are on the Earth, this circle will never end. Let the bad branches fall and spring new ones, better ones, show the old ones that it’s them who have lost, not you.

You are as radiant and beautiful as the sun is – act that way. Don’t let a few small rocks from outer space screw up your route. Let your ignorance burn them down, turn the way your true friends are. *hugs* 🙂