These were done over a year ago, when I found myself in a not-so-good place. However I do like looking back and things and seeing how much has changed since then, so you get these too. 😛 Comments are very welcomed, both good and bad.
- Locked Up Inside
“A wonderful day shines outside,
And it’s as if the sun reaches for me,
Calling me out there on this wild ride
Under the crystal blue, dead sea.
But something keeps me where I am,
The fact that I am so warm and comfortable,
And that I don’t like to get in the traffic jam,
Although my time at home might not be very fable.
So there I am, sitting at the coffee table,
Drinking what seems to be a cup of chocolate milk,
Yet deep inside myself I feel so unstable,
Like a piece of glass, like a piece of silk.
There exists this very weird feeling,
That seems to be suffocating my happiness,
And there seems to be no way to stop this stealing,
And the whole situation becomes a source of stress.
I don’t want to feel like this anymore,
I want to stop everything that’s going on in my mind,
It’s becoming a very difficult and unbearable war,
And my hurt soul feels like a helpless hind.
This is something that no one desires,
To get locked up at your own house, stuck in your own bed,
Waiting like a petrified person till this ugly love expires,
Because only when it’s over, one can move ahead.“
- The Helpless Call
“Last night I was so tired that I just went in bed and cried,
Because I was feeling like my brain was completely fried.
I hate how people always expect the best from poor me,
Even when everything is so difficult as if I’m drowning in a sea.
But the most hurtful things happens when want to excel,
But you keep failing, as if there’s some kind of spell.
My father thinks that I’m worse than my bigger brother,
And I can’t seem to prove the contrary even to my mother.
That’s why these days I always feel very sad and blue,
And I keep crying and thinking I will never make it through.
Please, my good friend, be nice and give me your hand,
This is too painful and I need your help in order to withstand.“
- Losing One’s Love [Cheesy]
“Sometimes in my dreams,
I see you and feel you close,
Like a true lover.
You are my best friend,
I adore you my cupcake,
My sweet pumpkin pie.
You’ll always be mine,
Like a kid to a mother,
Like one’s brother.
The two of us dear,
Together till we both die,
Or lose each other.
Hold my hand honey,
Keep me close to you tonight,
Don’t leave just yet.“